Wednesday, July 30, 2008
im beginning to like school (:
but still hate the ob assignment.
cannot wait to complete it and throw it back to micheal.
and cant wait for national day as well!
haha. no, i dint get all patriotic.
but for once in my life, im actually looking forward to that day. cos someone's coming back to spore and i'll have a bit more fun again. after being grounded for so long...
bet i wont get to borrow that ohsochio adidas jacket anymore ):
some gfs are just so pfft.
studying only also not pat toh. wait for her to knock off somemore. an entire day leh. tsk tsk.
but still hate the ob assignment.
cannot wait to complete it and throw it back to micheal.
and cant wait for national day as well!
haha. no, i dint get all patriotic.
but for once in my life, im actually looking forward to that day. cos someone's coming back to spore and i'll have a bit more fun again. after being grounded for so long...
bet i wont get to borrow that ohsochio adidas jacket anymore ):
some gfs are just so pfft.
studying only also not pat toh. wait for her to knock off somemore. an entire day leh. tsk tsk.
what we could have been, 23:30.
Monday, July 28, 2008
STRESS!!!
):
cannot wait till this shit ob is over.
cos of it,ive been so stressed and eating like crazy.
from this very second onwards, i shall not eat anything for an entire week. or two. until miss ngai comes back. feeding frenzy!
so fat. sigh
ok, ob.
):
cannot wait till this shit ob is over.
cos of it,ive been so stressed and eating like crazy.
from this very second onwards, i shall not eat anything for an entire week. or two. until miss ngai comes back. feeding frenzy!
so fat. sigh
ok, ob.
what we could have been, 03:47.
Friday, July 18, 2008
im actually starting to like going to school.
lessons are interesting and yea,i have to get a clique soon. couldnt remember how i ended up with so many clicks in the past.
i only hope i dont start hating school very soon. it always happens halfway through sem when i start losing interest in the modules. -.-
and maybe school seems so much more appealing cos home isnt really a great place to be when u dont get any personal space at all.
lessons are interesting and yea,i have to get a clique soon. couldnt remember how i ended up with so many clicks in the past.
i only hope i dont start hating school very soon. it always happens halfway through sem when i start losing interest in the modules. -.-
and maybe school seems so much more appealing cos home isnt really a great place to be when u dont get any personal space at all.
what we could have been, 19:05.
i hate my life.
what we could have been, 00:46.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
i am not happy. of course im not happy. and no its not cos i have to study. why would i not be happy just cos i need to study a few more extra years. it aint that bad, ive been doing it my whole life.
i am not happy because i attempt to try and concentrate but everytime i get there, i get interrupted by people who think they know everything. remind this remind that remind everything. i heard u the first time. your voices arent soft. why do i like going out so much? have u ever really given it a thought? maybe its cos when im out, i get peace. my own space. and time to think, without having someone scream at you every so often for any reason in the world. probably also why my brother always chooses to study IN THE LIBRARY or ANYWHERE else other than at home when he could. plus why i always prefer to study in the dead of the night when everyone else is asleep and sleep in the day instead. SO PEACEFUL.
and you should also know that reverse psychology DOESNT work on everyone. doesnt mean you throw 'cold water' at a person and put the person down means the person will definitely make a come back and prove to you that whatever you said is not true. yes, normal person would do all they can to prove it. but Not all will eventually succeed. if you even know psychology, i dont, but i make an assumption cos I THINK and have heard about it that it gets to the person's HEAD. everytime u put the person down, self esteem decreases and their performance level will go DOWN AS WELL.damn it.
fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail. FAIL LAH. who cares about the fucking distinction or even a credit. im gonna fail anyway. why bother. i told you reverse f psychology doesnt work on everyone.
"noooo. i was never like this. i was never like that" in my own memory, YES ive always been like that. i havent changed a bit. not at all. ive only grown older. you "see" my behaviour, my attitude and you KNOW i cannot study. HA. what bs. u dont even know me. what u see is 10 mins of 24hours. what you dont see, is basically pretty much, EVERYTHING. what? laptop cannot use. then cannot study. NOTES COME FROM ONLINE. researching for my OB essay FROM ONLINE. where else u expect me to get the sources? drop from sky? i wish. you use my laptop also. got windows open that i never close. and u either think its email or you dont bother checking at all. the only window open is my RMIT LEARNING HUB WEBSITE PAGE where i get ALL my lecture notes from. assume assume assume and u think you know theworld ME. just cos you made me doesnt mean you can read my mind inside out. no, it doesnt work that way no matter how you really imagine or want it to so badly. everything is an excuse to you. i use laptop only to check emails. I HAVE SOOOO MANY EMAILS IS IT. coming in every single second that i have to look and check my inbox so often i cannot afford to do anything else? wth!? seriously. no, im not doing any work. im not cracking my brains to think of a film and try linking it to any stupid chapter of ob for my project. im just plainly watching any random movie just cos i feel bored and have nothing better to worry about cos i have no life and really,in actual fact do not want to study at all. WTF. in case some people dont know. I AM BEING SARCASTIC. extremely so.
yes im not happy you control me. i can stay at home 24/7. just LEAVE ME ALONE for once. leaving me alone is how i put it in a more straight forward way of telling you to give me my peace and space. all i ask for is some quiet. let me do my things my way at my own pace. i dont need you to tell me to study. i can study on my own. the more u try to force the more i wont feel like doing anything.
you made me and ive done that my entire life but you failed to remember or even realise? you say i lied. yeah, i did, once. or even a couple of times after that. and thats why youre like that now? what started it off? just me having a bit more fun before sch starts and what u do. cut me off from the rest of the world and forbid me to go out. of course i find other means and ways to get around the problem what. what? u seriously think i will sit down and do nothing, just listen to everything you say? its not the 1960s. and im 20. a very large number. i really wonder if this would continue till i hit 30.
i dont believe they're doing all these cos its for my own good and cos they apparently, love me. cos driving a person nuts isnt really a good way of expressing it at all. more like being total control freaks. i really wonder why they wont just get me home schooled. so i dont see world, world dont see me, NO PROBLEM altogether.
I AM STUBBORN. so? shoot me.
better than going out for a few hours to actually seeing the fucking world and then coming home just to get nagged at for not studying when i went out for project meeting to begin with in the first place. the movie and dinner was just about 4hours after that. wtf.and project members meet up what time also want to make noise. wtf!
seriously,
WHAT THE FUCK YOU ALL WANT FROM ME.
argh!!!!!
i might be insane before this sem even ends. i cant do this, i cant do that, i cant do ANYTHING.
check back in 9 weeks to see if i have totally gone insane. if i have not, thank the heavens. its probably a miracle gone unnoticed. but i'll still be damaged one way or another. so start praying.
i am not happy because i attempt to try and concentrate but everytime i get there, i get interrupted by people who think they know everything. remind this remind that remind everything. i heard u the first time. your voices arent soft. why do i like going out so much? have u ever really given it a thought? maybe its cos when im out, i get peace. my own space. and time to think, without having someone scream at you every so often for any reason in the world. probably also why my brother always chooses to study IN THE LIBRARY or ANYWHERE else other than at home when he could. plus why i always prefer to study in the dead of the night when everyone else is asleep and sleep in the day instead. SO PEACEFUL.
and you should also know that reverse psychology DOESNT work on everyone. doesnt mean you throw 'cold water' at a person and put the person down means the person will definitely make a come back and prove to you that whatever you said is not true. yes, normal person would do all they can to prove it. but Not all will eventually succeed. if you even know psychology, i dont, but i make an assumption cos I THINK and have heard about it that it gets to the person's HEAD. everytime u put the person down, self esteem decreases and their performance level will go DOWN AS WELL.damn it.
fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail fail. FAIL LAH. who cares about the fucking distinction or even a credit. im gonna fail anyway. why bother. i told you reverse f psychology doesnt work on everyone.
"noooo. i was never like this. i was never like that" in my own memory, YES ive always been like that. i havent changed a bit. not at all. ive only grown older. you "see" my behaviour, my attitude and you KNOW i cannot study. HA. what bs. u dont even know me. what u see is 10 mins of 24hours. what you dont see, is basically pretty much, EVERYTHING. what? laptop cannot use. then cannot study. NOTES COME FROM ONLINE. researching for my OB essay FROM ONLINE. where else u expect me to get the sources? drop from sky? i wish. you use my laptop also. got windows open that i never close. and u either think its email or you dont bother checking at all. the only window open is my RMIT LEARNING HUB WEBSITE PAGE where i get ALL my lecture notes from. assume assume assume and u think you know the
yes im not happy you control me. i can stay at home 24/7. just LEAVE ME ALONE for once. leaving me alone is how i put it in a more straight forward way of telling you to give me my peace and space. all i ask for is some quiet. let me do my things my way at my own pace. i dont need you to tell me to study. i can study on my own. the more u try to force the more i wont feel like doing anything.
you made me and ive done that my entire life but you failed to remember or even realise? you say i lied. yeah, i did, once. or even a couple of times after that. and thats why youre like that now? what started it off? just me having a bit more fun before sch starts and what u do. cut me off from the rest of the world and forbid me to go out. of course i find other means and ways to get around the problem what. what? u seriously think i will sit down and do nothing, just listen to everything you say? its not the 1960s. and im 20. a very large number. i really wonder if this would continue till i hit 30.
i dont believe they're doing all these cos its for my own good and cos they apparently, love me. cos driving a person nuts isnt really a good way of expressing it at all. more like being total control freaks. i really wonder why they wont just get me home schooled. so i dont see world, world dont see me, NO PROBLEM altogether.
I AM STUBBORN. so? shoot me.
better than going out for a few hours to actually seeing the fucking world and then coming home just to get nagged at for not studying when i went out for project meeting to begin with in the first place. the movie and dinner was just about 4hours after that. wtf.and project members meet up what time also want to make noise. wtf!
seriously,
WHAT THE FUCK YOU ALL WANT FROM ME.
argh!!!!!
i might be insane before this sem even ends. i cant do this, i cant do that, i cant do ANYTHING.
check back in 9 weeks to see if i have totally gone insane. if i have not, thank the heavens. its probably a miracle gone unnoticed. but i'll still be damaged one way or another. so start praying.
what we could have been, 23:57.
